Friday, July 20, 2012

enough




 Aches seized every part of my body for three days.

Even my elbows hurt.

Flu in the summer? Who gets that?

It could have been the flu and yet perhaps it wasn't. Maybe some other virus or a bacterial infection, or maybe just exhaustion.

I tried to run on the second day of aching and as it turned out that wasn't a good choice. It was the worst day I felt since my freshman year in college. I moaned incessantly and couldn't get comfortable.

Work had mandatory strategy sessions for two days. In the throes of my aches. And I went anyway.

I sat in hard back chairs and couldn't get comfortable. I was angry at what seemed so unproductive and longed to be horizontal. Yet when I got home I couldn't find a comfortable position.

As I walked in the door, The Boy had a story to tell and I remembered that his sharing is his hello. He's been waiting to envelope me into his world all day.

He exclaimed that he planned to run around the house 17 times. He was training for something.

I grabbed my camera for a different reason and instead captured his running.

Here I was, sidelined because of sickness and there he was, doing it instead. Not because I couldn't, but because he could.

I'd had enough of work this week. And Pinterest. And Facebook. And Twitter. And even comparing words and getting twisted up in feeling worth. less. So we decided to get away and we've packed the car.

Before we go, I'll celebrate feeling better and get in a run. And try for it not to be out of perfection-seeking or pound-dissolving.

Today I'll try to think on what I have.

The moments. The joy. The peace. The smiles. The laugh-till-my-belly-hurts. This life.

It's enough.

Just. This.

In sickness or in health.


Today's post is part of my friend, Lisa-Jo's fun challenge each Friday to 

     "Write for five, short, bold beautiful minutes... 
     Unscripted and unedited...
     Without worrying if it's just right or not."
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16 comments:

  1. I love how God gives us just enough strength, even when we think we're done. I hope you enjoy the run:-)

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    1. It's one of those gifts I'm most appreciative for, Linda. Right there with you.

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  2. I hope you enjoyed the run, and The Boy's story. I'm not a runner, but I loved the idea of you running just because, for the shear joy of it, not for a purpose. Sometimes that's what we need, to do something because we enjoy it, and it reminds us we do have enough.

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    1. You're so right, Nita. I do love running--truly for the joy of it. I often say, "run because you can," thinking of that passion.

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  3. What a lovely thought - how different life would look if only we'd really think on what we have. Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Really, you're right. Life would look so different, eh? Praying we might shift perspectives for at least a moment today. Us both. Thanks for stopping by, LuAnne.

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  4. this is so beautiful and so real! glad you are feeling better and hope your get-away was just enough!

    thanks for the exhortation to think on what i have.

    blessings!

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  5. Yes yes yes. I hear your sweet voice saying these words, and I KNOW what you mean. Enjoy your break, prayers for good health and enjoyment of your precious time together! XXOO

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  6. "Not because I couldn't, but because he could." Beautiful, Amy. Thanks for sharing, even the less-than-perfect times. I hope you'll enjoy your time away.

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    1. Thanks, Jana. It was refreshing. Just to *be*.

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  7. Amy, I loved how you've realized that his chatter about things when you come in is his "hello" It's His welcome to my world, I'm so glad your here and you care. Glad your feeling better :)

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    1. Your words are so sweet to my heart today, Angie. I appreciate you.

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  8. "not because I couldn't, but because he could" - this really spoke to me. I used to love running;'have been housebound (almost bedbound) now for about 2 years and struggle with walking. I am suddenly thinking of future sports days where my boy will be competing and I will be missing the fact that I used to run. I need to remember this mantra. Thank you.

    (coming to you via Lisa-Jo, slightly belatedly!)

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  9. These moments are so fragile, aren't they? We can't perfectly remember this or perfectly appreciate. And even when we fail, there's grace and purpose. Might His love wrap around us today.

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