Though it hasn't felt good, it has been good.
I've experienced Freedom to choose.
I didn't *follow the rules* and be a good girl to choose gratefulness.
These days have revealed Truth:
Up until now I've chosen the safe path.
Because someone invested in me, I responded with excitement at their attention-giving without considering my heart and the aches inside of me. I made professional choices based on what I felt I should do.
And the past several
There's a longing deep inside of me that I can't even articulate.
Yet, it's one that tugs at me deeply, in the night as well as the day.
*Different* calls my name.
As scary as it is to not even know what she is all about, I long for her.
I crave to live according to how I was created.
I long to live my heart's desires.
So, when the good girl inside me wants to be embarrassed over my attitude of late, I reach for His strength to choose Grace, instead.
Unwrapping Trust for the longing, and Freedom for the anxiousness.