This thing you did, it wasn't a screw up.
And that struggle you have, it isn't failure.
Because, this is what you know today.
These are your habits.
They have become your way of being.
This is how you cope. It's what's familiar.
Any other way seems unnatural and clunky in real life.
You're curious, sure. And the different way you imagine is enticing.
Still, this is what you know.
Accept that about yourself. And the way habits become a way of life.
Honor your Self.
After all, you are human. Messy and weak.
On your own you aren't enough. And the truth is, you never will be.
You were deliberately made this way. For purpose. To need Him.
This is truth.
So, about your heart cry, He hears it.
What you desperately hope for, He knows it.
It's okay to utter it. To whisper-thin declare it.
You can trust that you're heard.
And as far as a change in you goes, it'll come.
For even how you are today, you can Rest.
You. Are. Enough.