Craving Rest, I long for nothingness.
Video games playing. Movie watching. Family visiting. Workout forgo-ing.
Plans are imagined, developed, frosted and decorated.
So delicious-looking that I can't even bring myself to touch them.
These plans are just as fake as the adornments.
There may be rushing about and boredom,
and probably some shouting and crying.
We might wish we could run to school or work.
Reality will run her course.
Some things are for certain.
Peace will follow me.
Love will lead me.
Grace will free me.
Expectations will dissolve and perfection-seeking will crumble.
Those idols never last long--
always the first to break, the ones I adorn the most.
He'll find me when I forget.
He'll comfort me when I cry.
And, I'll adore--Always. Adore.
In simple ways His beauty will be found.
And I will See *purpose*, even in my mess.
During my time home this week, I'll be living in a very real way.
Simply and truly living.
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Sounds lovely. Perfectly lovely.
ReplyDeleteThis is the most reassuring post I've read throughout the entire holiday season.
ReplyDeleteI really get this - the desire for nothingness dressed up as a fake ideal/idol that is nothing more than a figment of our imagination. Reality is more precious than that.
Beautiful!
ReplyDeletePraying you are enjoying your time at home with your family. God bless you, friend.
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