One evening we're talking with our neighbor-friend about the intricate details of arranging such a wonderful-sounding vacation that I insist I must take our family on next April.
And the next morning I awaken with desire for that trip wiped out. A change I still fear to admit out loud because I know my tendency to want.
I wonder if it's guilt that is causing this. Or the questions of whether I should feel guilty.
But truthfully, it's truth and grace.
Because, one question filled my heart: "What Then?"
After such an incredible vacation that we could afford if we wanted to, what then? We'll just want more and desire won't be quenched. And, so much could go wrong. Weather and such.
What if we didn't do what everyone else is doing?
It's a remarkable question filled with wonder and possibility.
Most of all, it's evidence of Him working in my heart. Changing me from the inside out.
Today's post was part of my friend, Lisa-Jo's fun challenge each Friday to
"Write for five, short, bold beautiful minutes...
Unscripted and unedited...
Without worrying if it's just right or not."
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It's funny how perspective and desire can change, isn't it? Sometimes the waiting for the "what, thens?" are the sweetest times. (Sometimes!) Praying this is one of them. Grace to you, Amy.
ReplyDeleteI can't really tell you how much I love this. A whole lot...
ReplyDelete"What if we didn't do what everyone else is doing?" This, This is messing with my heart, with my mind....
thank you for this, Amy.